Being laid off - my worst nightmare come true

I’m being pushed from the frying pan into the fire. And when I’m fully roasted I’ll be chucked into the bin. Take your pick – Terminated, Resigned, Chucked out, given the boot, pushed into oblivion, laid off, etc, etc. I’ve said it but I’m still not willing to believe it.

5 months, that’s all it took. Already I’ve been chewed alive by the Capital. Pretty soon I’ll be spit out and that will be the end of that story. It’s surreal, that’s all I can say. I walked into this city with nothing. I’ll walk out with very little. In the interim I’ve probably accumulated enough bad karma to last me a lifetime and a half.

Will I miss the city? NO. Will I miss my job? NO. Will I miss my co – workers? NO. Will I miss the room that I rent by the month? NO. Then WHY THE BLOODY FUCKING HELL AM I DEPRESSED?

I’m depressed because I don’t know where I’m going to go next. I have no avenues, no options. I’m going to be thrown out on my left ear rather unceremoniously. And when I gather up the courage to pick myself up and dust myself off, I won’t know where to go.

Am I incompetent? No. Am I the kind of person who’s going to shirk from working? No. Am I completely useless? No. At the end of the day, there’s no major reason why I’m being singled out for the lay off. There are others in the same boat as me but that is no consolation. I’m not going to derive any consolation from the fact that there are others who would undergo the same thing.

Finding solace in someone else’s misfortune ensures rebirth as a cockroach. And I frankly don’t want to be a cockroach or any other creepy crawly for that matter. I’ll move from being salaried and homeless to being job less and homeless.

And yes I’m trying to find a job but so far its all one big blank. Zilch. Nada. Nix. Nyet. It is the best of times and it is the worst of times (Sorry Charles, my apologies for shamelessly plagiarizing your famous opening line and converting it into the present tense.)
So folks today’s post is solely dedicated to all those people who have been mercilessly sacrificed at the altar of cost cutting. Here’s to you guys. I can truly say that I share your pain.